bad day

don't post angry. too late. i guess if this is going to be an accurate reflection of his senior year, it's the good, the bad and the ugly. today was definitely two out of three. but someday i suppose we'll all look back on this and laugh. or not. seriously entertaining the idea of a 'gap' year right now. no committment, no sense of consequences, no remorse - except for being caught. the pattern he established freshman year has reared its ugly head each and every year since - and we just had a major sighting. what's the pattern? basically 'dropping' classes he's not that into. unfortunately, it always means a mad scramble to recover, most of the time not that well. guess what though, not ponying up college cash for this type of performance. so he either pulls it together, or he figures out plan b. which definitely would not include a college on a coast. maybe not college at all.
many bad words were said in my mind. many many bad words. many many times over. really don't feel like talking to him. so i'm not.

game on

the first day of his last season. years of practices and sacrifices. all the early mornings, and late nights. indoors, outdoors, yards and meters. lap after lap after lap after lap. tired muscles, fried hair, dry skin. ups and downs, triumphs and tribulations. meets and friends and travel trips. it all comes down to this. after an extremely disappointing season last year, jake's excited about his new coach, his new team, and a new year. main goal, make it fun again! since none of the schools that jake's interested in even have swim teams, this is going to be the cap to all the years of hard work he's put in. good luck and go lincoln:)